The Way Love Works

I read this while surfing the internet a few months back and when i tried to find it i can't anymore.. lol
but i still remember how the story goes as it struck me a few days ago after i had my emotional breakdown.. dunno why but yeah.. things like this happen to me lots of times already =P
heh.. here's how it goes..

A & J started dating ever since they were in high school. Both loved each other very much. One day, A told J that he's leaving for overseas to further his studies. J was very sad that A had to leave but A assured J that he'll always love her no matter how far he is from her. That night, A wrote a letter to J and he left it by her doorstep. J's father saw the letter as he walked out of the house; read it and placed it on J's desk. The next morning, J woke up and saw the letter lying on her desk. She opened it and was shocked when she read the content of the letter. It read:

Dear J,

I hate you. I never loved you. I never liked you from the very beginning. You make me sick. You're a bitch! I have never loved you. I hate you. And I will never love you.

From,
A

J met up with A at a park that afternoon. He handed her another letter but she did not want to accept it. She slapped him instead and broke up with him on the spot without question. A became depressed after the sudden break up and he killed himself before leaving for his studies. The news of A's death reached J. J watched the news bulletin regarding A's death. According to the reporter, A hanged himself in his bedroom the night after they broke up. In his hand was a piece of paper; a letter to be exact, that was addressed to J. The letter read:

To my beloved J,

I'm sorry if you misunderstood my last letter that I sent to you. I truly, indeed love you. Never once did I ever stop loving you. The only reason I wrote that letter in that way is so that your dad won't find out. You know that your dad doesn't like me. This is the only way so that he could actually give it to you without suspecting anything. I'm sorry if it was hurtful to you. You know very well i love you very much. If you can, please re-read the letter and do as follows:
hate = love
never = always
sick = happy
bitch = angel

I love you with all my heart, my love.

Love,
A

J never gave A a chance to explain himself and he died because of that. J lived with the guilt of killing the only person she ever loved.


This is to everyone out there. Keep your relationships. If you do love that special someone very much stay true and do as much as you can to preserve that relationship you have. This story is not to be followed by anyone, it's just a way of showing people how much love you put into that certain someone..

I hope you enjoyed this little short story.
If it offended anyone, I'm terribly sorry.

See ya :)

ASC

two weeks of holidays taken up by ASC.. TOMG!! (totally oh my God!!) XD

but i'm not regretting it. all the hard work i've put in along with the others in this Asian Sessions and Council has made this camp a success.

the stress and depression from my problems are taken away from me..hopefully la. i don't really know but it feels so. so i hope it really goes away.

i'll add in more pictures the next time when i'm back in kuching and in front of my computer. lol XD

see ya later..

Stressed

new blog post new day new story..

what do i have for you today

nothing much but lots and lots of stress


this should be a happy blog site but it just goes to show that even a happy blog can be filled with hard and sad posts.

but not for long la

i don't want this blog to be like my old one.

the emo blog XD

ASC is the Asian Session's and Council. Held in St. Lukas' Centre, Kota Padawan and it starts
from the 4th till the 14th of June.

this takes up the holidays that i was looking forward to having my intensive study for my exam..

but..God's calling to serve for this ASC although i've been through alot of HELL lately..

and i mean ALOTTTT of hell..

i don't wanna go into details but before this ASC i've went through a month of severe depression which left me half dead and my parents almost brought me to the hospital for check up.

but with the help of my family and friends, i managed to pick myself up from that period of depression and let go of everything that i had.

well, not really everything but most of the things la.

it wasn't easy then and its still not easy now 'cos i found it harder and harder each living day.

until recently, i broke down during the ASC but i can't tell when.. don't want to reveal too much info.. sorry..

this stress from before ASC and during ASC caused me to burst inside out and everything in me went blank..

literally blank..

there was this deep void in me that i don't think can be filled in this short time when people keep coming to me, saying, "stay strong..time will heal everything.."

same thing same old same old..

heh..its just hard when you keep getting complaints when you practically did nothing wrong or you actually accomplished that particular task without fail or you just do according to what they told you to do and they still want to find fault in you.

its just unfair when you can't say anything about it or even defend yourself about that task that you did properly...sucks much..

well, again i say.. its just hard when you keep doing the right stuff but more and more and more problems keep piling up and you're the one to blame for it when it has nothing to do even with you.. imagine the pain of being stabbed in the back over and over and over again..

and you see yourself bleeding from all those stabs and you can't do anything about it.

that's what i'm feeling right now and its super hard for me to get over this pain.

that's all that i can say for now.. i don't wanna fill up this post with my rants and complains..

read well

cyaz..